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Fighting world hunger

12/31/09

Blogging spree

RANDOM BLOGGING SPREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is really sad: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-564611/Girl-13-hangs-obsessed-Emo-suicide-cult-rock-band.html

Emo
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Never willingly look for the Black Parade, there are people who love you, somewhere, and they always will...




Loooove.
looooove
looooov
looooo
loooo
looo
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*boom*
:(

He is

I edited The Fray's song, "She is", to He is-- it explains everything about Danny and I.

Kind of like how Danny changed around Hey There Delilah.

Do not get me wrong I cannot wait for you to come around,
For now you're not here and I'm not there, it's like we're on our own ground,
To figure it out, consider how to find a place to stand
Instead of walking away and instead of nowhere to land

This is gonna to break me clean in two
This is gonna to bring me close to you

He is everything I need that I never knew I wanted
He is everything I want that I never knew I needed



He is everything I need that I never knew I wanted
He is everything I want that I never knew I needed

It's all up in the air and we stand still to see what comes down
I don't know where it is, I don't know when, but I want you around
When it falls into place with you and I, we go from if to when
Your side and mine are both behind it's indication

This is gonna bring me clarity
This'll take the heart right out of me

He is everything I need that I never knew I wanted
He is everything I want that I never knew I needed



He is everything I need that I never knew I wanted
He is everything I want that I never knew I needed

This is gonna bring me to my knees
I just wanna hold you close to me

He is everything I need that I never knew I wanted
He is everything I want that I never knew I needed


He is everything I need that I never knew I wanted
He is everything I want that I never knew I needed

He is everything I needed
He is everything



-Meggy








P.S. Danny-- I just want to know every thought you've ever thought about me, good or bad.

12/29/09

Emo Alphabet

Parts of this were rude, but I just have to say that even though to some its offensive, most parts are funny:
http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=emo%20alphabet

By the way-- Matt is getting a blogspot. :).. I think. XD

You should also check out the comics on this site
http://www.explosm.net
Cyanide and Happiness. :)
Some are offensive, some are funny... but hey.
One of the comics. "AHHHH, RUNNING FROM MY PAAST!"
Lol..

Cyanide and Happiness, a daily webcomic
Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net




12/28/09

Yawn...

Wow... I'm tired...

I barely got any sleep last night. I was cold, I was sad, and I was thinking.

Everyday, I read Danny's newest post....
Over.
and Over.
And Over.
And Over and over again till he posts again. Because they're something close to him, something he wrote.

And then, when he posts again, I read that one.
Over. And Over. And Over and over again, and so on, until he posts, and then I do the same.

It's clinging on to something that I don't really have. Clinging on to thin air, where something used to be there.

I guess I can remember what missing space, that Danny only has filled up a quarter up of.


When I was about 4, or 5, I moved to the house I'm living in now.
I've lived here for quite a while.

In the house to the left of mine, there was a house. Inside that house was a family, with a 12 year old girl,  a 8 or 9 or 10 (or something) year old boy, and older teenage boy, and then.... There was Mely.

Mely was only 1 or 2 years older than me, and in the next grade.

She became my best friend.
We laughed, we ran around in her back yard, my back yard, whichever we felt like.

Sure, her 12 year old sister, Amanda, was pretty much a child molester/ rapist and... Yeah, I'd know, because I was small and you don't need to hear that story.

Anyway. Mely was absolutely my first best friend. She lived next door, how could she not be?

My older brother hung out with one of the boys, but I didn't pay attention.

Mely and I were like peanut butter and jelly. Don't laugh, because it's true, and if you laugh at something this wonderful yet sad I will punch your damn face in.

We even kissed eachother's cheeks. It seems like a silly thing, but at least its something I remember of her.

All the memories I had with her were great. Sure, some we're embarrassing, but at least I still remember her, nevertheless.

People laughed at us-- 2 young girls kissing cheeks-- But we were closer than anything.

As we got older, I was eventually in 3, or 2 grade. She told me she would be moving away. She was in 3, or 4th grade.

I was very sad. She gave me her new address and phone number, but I eventually lost those.

I've only seen her a few times since. I cry all the time about her, but eventually I fall asleep or something. But every day, I think about her. I even cry when I just think of her name.

I guess Danny really only fills up half of that space---

The other half would have to be filled by a girl. A girl, I could talk to-- a girl.. Mely.

She knows where I live, but I've no trace of her..

Except for something, or one of the things she gave me.

Yeah, she gave me memories, and probably a shirt or something...but she also gave me a small teddy bear.

I still have the teddy bear. Both of us, Mely and I, loved him a lot. I carried him everywhere, and now he's covered in dirt, still sitting on my shelf.

I think I'll take a picture, and take him down.


His name was, Walnut, or Peanut, or some kind of nut. My dog has stolen many of my stuffed animals, but I will never let him have this one. Ever. The little teddy bear has a rose embroidered on his chest, and a red scarf around his neck. A red little embroidered nose and mouth, and black eyes.

But he smells like Mely, and its like he's part of Mely.

Part of Mely that will always fill up part of her space.


Although he's old and dirty, the part of Mely that she left in him... Well, it makes him beautiful.

12/27/09

13 stupid things

13. This list. 


XD

257 ways to annoy someone... :P

1. Specify that your drive-thru order is "to go."

2. If you have a glass eye, tap on it occasionally with your pen while talking to others.

3. Start each meal by conspicuously licking all your food, and announce that this is so no one will "swipe your grub."

4.Name your dog "Dog."

5. Insist on keeping your car windshield wipers running in all weather conditions "to keep them tuned up."

6. Reply to everything someone says with "that's what you think."

7. Claim that you must always wear a bicycle helmet as part of your "astronaut training."

8. Follow a few paces behind someone, spraying everything they touch with a can of Lysol.

9. Make beeping noises when a large person backs up.

10. Do not add any inflection to the end of your sentences, producing awkward silences with the impression that you'll be saying more any moment.

11. Adjust the tint on your TV so that all the people are green, and insist to others that you "like it that way."

12. Tell 1-800 operators they sound gay and ask for a date.

13. Sew anti-theft detector strips into people's backpacks.

14. Hide dairy products in inaccessible places.

15. Order a side of pork rinds with your fillet mignon.

16. Change channels five minutes before the end of every show.

17. Tape pieces of "Sweating to the Oldies" over climatic parts of rental movies.

18. Decline to be seated at a restaurant, and simply eat their complimentary mints by the cash register.

19. Buy a large quantity of orange traffic cones and reroute whole streets.

20. Repeat everything someone says as a question.

21. Write "X - BURIED TREASURE" in random spots on all of someone's road maps.

22. Inform everyone you meet of your personal Kennedy assassination, UFO, and OJ Simpson conspiracy theories.

23. Repeat the following conversation a dozen times: "Do you hear that?", "What?", "Never mind, it's gone now."

24. Light road flares on a birthday cake.

25. Wander around a restaurant, asking other diners for their parsley.

26. At the Laundromat, use one dryer for each of your socks.

27. Stand over someone's shoulder, mumbling as they read.

28. Ask people what gender they are.

29. Lick the filling out of all the Oreos, and place the cookie parts back in the tray.

30. While making presentations, occasionally bob your head like a parakeet.

31. Lie obviously about trivial things such as the time of day.

32. Leave your Christmas lights up and lit until September.

33. Change your name to "John Aaaaasmith" for the great glory of being first in the phone book. Claim it's a Hawaiian name, and demand that people pronounce each "a."

34. Sit in your front yard pointing a hair dryer at passing cars to see if they slow down.

35. Chew on pens that you've borrowed.

36. Wear a lot of cologne.

37. Listen to 33RPM records at 45RPM speed, and claim the faster speed is necessary because of your "superior mental processing."

38. Sing along at the opera.

39. Mow your lawn with scissors.

40. At a golf tournament, chant "swing-batabatabata-suhwing-batter!"

41. Ask the waitress for an extra seat for your "imaginary friend."

42. Go to a poetry recital and ask why each poem doesn't rhyme.

43. Ask your co-workers mysterious questions and then scribble their answers in a notebook. Mutter something about "psychological profiles."

44. Select the same song on the jukebox fifty times.

45. Construct elaborate "crop circles" in your front lawn.

46. Make appointments for the 31st of September.

47. Invite lots of people to other people's parties.

48. Leave the copy machine set to reduce 200%, extra dark, 17 inch paper, 99 copies.

49. In the memo field of all your checks, write "for sensual massage."

50. Stomp on little plastic ketchup packets.

51. Practice making fax and modem noises.

52. Highlight irrelevant information in scientific papers and "cc." them to your boss.

53. Finish all your sentences with the words "in accordance with prophecy."

54. Signal that a conversation is over by clamping your hands over your ears.

55. Disassemble your pen and "accidentally" flip the ink cartridge across the room.

56. Holler random numbers while someone is counting.

57. Staple papers in the middle of the page.

58. Publicly investigate just how slowly you can make a "croaking" noise.

59. Honk and wave to strangers.

60. TYPE ONLY IN UPPERCASE.

61. type only in lowercase.

62. dont use any punctuation either

63. As much as possible, skip rather than walk.

64. Try playing the William Tell Overture by tapping on the bottom of your chin. When nearly done, announce "No, wait, I messed it up," and repeat.

65. Sing the theme to the Batman television show as loudly as you can, over and over and over..

66. Tell people their accent isn't fooling anyone.

67. Drum on every available surface.

68. Write the surprise ending to a novel on its first page.

69. Set alarms for random times.

70. Learn Morse code and have conversations with friends in public consisting of "Beeeep bip bip beeeep bip.."

71. Buy large quantities of mint dental floss just to lick the flavor off.

72. Leave your Nine Inch Nails tape in Great Uncle Ed's stereo, with the volume properly adjusted.

73. Dress only in clothes colored Hunter's Orange.

74. Wear your pants backwards.

75. Begin all your sentences with "Ohh la la!"

76. Rouse your roommates from slumber each morning with Lou Reed's "Metal Machine Music."

77. Leave someone's printer in compressed-italic-landscape mode.

78. Pay for your dinner with pennies.

79. Tie jingle bells to all your clothes.

80. Repeat everything someone says, as a question.

81. Leave tips in Bolivian currency.

82. Demand that everyone address you as "Conquistador."

83. Push all the flat Lego pieces together tightly.

84. When Christmas caroling, sing "Jingle bells, Batman smells" until physically restrained.

85. Wear a cape that says "Magnificent One."

86. Finish the 99 bottles of beer song.

87. Sing the "This is the song that never ends" song from Lampchop's Play-Along.

88. Leave your turn signal on for fifty miles.

89. Pretend your mouse is a CB radio, and talk into it.

90. Drive half a block.

91. Inform others that they exist only in your imagination.

92. Cultivate a Norwegian accent. If Norwegian, affect a southern drawl.

93. "Forget" the punch line to a long joke, but assure the listener it was a "real hoot."

94. Routinely handcuff yourself to furniture, informing the curious that you don't want to fall off "in case the big one comes."

95. Deliberately hum songs that will remain lodged in co-workers' brains, such as "Feliz Navidad," the Archies' "Sugar," or the Mr. Rogers theme song.

96. Invent nonsense computer jargon in conversations, and see if people play along to avoid the appearance of ignorance.

97. Ask to "interface" with someone.

98. Incessantly recite annoying phrases, such as "sticky wicket isn't cricket."

99. Stare at static on the TV and claim you can see a "magic picture."

100. Scuff your feet on a dry, shaggy carpet and seek out victims.

101. Never make eye contact.

102. Never break eye contact.

103. Construct your own pretend "tricorder," and "scan" people with it, pronouncing the results.

104. Give a play-by-play account of a person's every action in a nasal Howard Cossell voice.

105. Occasionally bark in a high-pitched voice.

106. Say "okay, you're gay" to anything someone says.

107. As people talk, smell their shoulders.

108. When in a conversation, look out the window, then say "Wait, start over. I wasn't paying attention."

109. Say to people, "Did you wear deodorant today?"

110. Place your shoes on the table.

111. When talking to someone, look at a spot about two inches to their right.

112. When standing near a "high-class person," ask them, "Excuse me, but do I have a booger hanging on my nose? I thought I picked it off."

113. Switch your neighbor's lawn furniture with someone else's.

114. Call into work and tell them you have something better to do today.

115. Buy goldfish and ask the clerk if they come with chips.

116. Sample every flavor of ice cream and tell the clerk what you don't like about each one.

117. Pick your ear wax and ask if you could use their sleeve to wipe it off.

118. Insist completely ridiculous things are true - like Bush is still President.

119. Speak in a strong Welsh accent.

120. Wear odd shoes.

121. Learn "Ice Ice Baby" by heart and recite it endlessly.

122. Disagree strongly with everything anybody says.

123. Throw stones at people walking past your house.

124. Keep changing the TV channel every two seconds.

125. Insist that Celine Dion is better than the Beatles.

126. Whenever anyone says something, laugh loudly as if they have just told and extremely funny joke.

127. Phone McDonald's and try to make a reservation for that evening.

128. Spend an entire weekend pretending you are R2-D2.

129. Phone random numbers and tell them you are holding their daughter hostage.

130. Recite the first 4,000 decimal places of Pi. Then ask if people want to hear it in binary, too.

131. Pretend you have gone completely deaf.

132. .sdrawkcab etirW

133. Walk into people's houses, go straight to the fridge without saying hello, and help yourself to their food.

134. Speak so quietly that people always have to get you to repeat it.

135. Loudly recite people's most embarrassing secrets in restaurants.

136. Play the electric guitar very loudly and badly, then when the neighbors ask you to turn it down, play even louder. When they come round to complain again, say, "Oh, I'm sorry. I thought you asked me to turn it up!

137. Try to fit the word "cornucopia" into every sentence you say.

138. Drive on the wrong side of the road.

139. Secretly learn to play the piano, then go to a friend's house who has a piano. Claim you've never played before then play Jesu Joy of Man's Desiring perfectly the first time. Then say, "I guess I must kinda be a natural."

140. Go canoeing and sing the Hawaii Five-0 theme.

141. Claim that until recently, you thought Michael Jackson was a woman.

142. Wear your cap backwards and say "Yo, wazzup?" a lot.

143. Go to a Metallica concert wearing a Michael Bolton T-Shirt.

144. Tell everyone you are Bill Clinton's cousin.

145. Take photos of people walking down the street and then run away.

146. Dedicate your life to politics, become president of the United States, then raise all taxes to 90%.

147. Down a can of Coke in one drink and then burp loudly.

148. Insist that it was Bobby who shot J.R.

149. Bark like a dog whenever anyone says the word "the."

150. Wire up people's cars so the horn comes on as soon as their car is started.

151. Ride a unicycle to work.

152. E-mail Microsoft to tell them about bugs in Windows XP that aren't actually there.

153. Stare at people for about five minutes, making sure they know you're staring at them. Then, slowly sneak up to them while humming the Mission: Impossible theme. Sniff their head, then run away. Repeat.

154. Continuously mumble during a conversation.

155. Take off the eraser to every pencil in your house, or better yet, someone else's house.

156. When in a chat room, spell everything incorrectly.

157. Insist on "Weird Al" sing-a-longs.

158. On a hot summer day, ride up and down the road and drench pedestrians with squirt guns.

159. When walking down a main road, act like a drunk.

160. Wear nothing but white and go mud wrestling.

161. Walk up to someone eating. Lean over and stare at them intently until they notice. Continue to do so until they ask what you're doing. Reply, "I've been watching you eat for the last 30 seconds.. You're weird!" Leave the restaurant.

162. When walking, talk to yourself constantly.

163. Move people's bookmarks ahead three pages when they aren't looking.

164. Call the operator. When asked, "Can I help you?" reply, "No thanks, just browsing."

165. Go to a gumball machine insert coins until you have a matching pair of fake eyeballs. After attaining these, record the theme song of The Twilight Zone over and over again. Drive down the street wearing the eyeballs and playing The Twilight Zone theme very loud. When you get pulled over, leap into the passenger's seat and claim, "He was here a minute ago, officer!"

166. On a night other than Halloween, get a few friends together and dress like Jason from Friday the 13th. Have each of you stand a mile apart on a highway.

167. After visiting the local donut shop, sit on the floor cross-legged and insist in a childish voice that you haven't received enough chocolate sprinkles.

168. Push a raisin into someone's cream-filled donut. (I don't get this one.)

169. Spread fertilizer on half your neighbor's lawn.

170. Add A535 (liquid heat) to that little hole down the center of someone's anti-perspirant.

171.

172.

173. Add blank entries to lists, to make it look like it's longer.

174. Call every pager number you know and leave the number for your local McDonald's.

175. Wash and scrub the trees in your front lawn.

176. Throw newspapers back at paperboys.

177. Tell people their fly is down when they're wearing sweat pants.

178. Stand on a busy corner. Gasp, look and point up. See how many people look.

179. At random times in a conversation, say "Hi," "Hello Sir, how are you?" or "Have a good day, thank you."

180. Put electrical tape over the headlights of someone's car.

181. Walk up to random strangers insisting you are family.

182. Dress like a "High-class rich person" and wash windows at random street corners. Demand a dollar in a British accent.

183. When a cop pulls you over, when they step up to your car, drive forward slowly and make them walk. Especially if it's raining.

184. In an office, lock all the doors behind you.

185. Face the back when standing in an elevator.

186. Grin so wide it hurts your cheeks at every salesperson in town.

187. When at an ATM, try to have a conversation with it, or pretend it stole your card. (This works best if there's a line.)

188. Unbend all the paperclips you can find, then replace every eraser you can find with a rubber band.

189. Ask people to prove everything they say. (e.g. "I'm Bob, nice to meet you..." "PROVE IT!")

190. Sharpen All your pencils to the same size EXACTLY.

191. Answer every question with another question. As soon as one of you says a statement instead of a question, shout "I win!".

192. Pose as a client at a bank or other professional institution, and when you are seated in front of their desk, keep rearranging the items on top into different patterns and tell them you are "just reorganizing things."

193. Instead of singing 99 bottles of beer on the wall, sing 999,999,999 bottles of beer on the wall!

194. Call every girl you know "dude".

195. Recite every song from the Playstation games PaRappa the Rapper and Um Jammer Lammy.

196. Bring a portable CD player to a concert and listen the CD because you insist that it is "Just better quality"

197. Press the "power" button on on someone's computer or keyboard when they're almost finished typing up a long essay, story etc. Apologize sincerely, claiming that you thought it was the focus adjustment.

198. Call 911 and breathe heavily.

199. Take a shower. Feel guilty. Give it back.

200. Mow your carpet. (Or preferably somebody else's)

201. Vacuum your lawn. (See note on 200)

202. Recite shakespearian poetry to everyone you meet.

203. Go to McDonalds and ask for a BK Whopper.

204. Order a pizza and ask them if they can "please put the crust on top this time" in an exasperated voice.

205. Every time someone asks you to do something or says something to you ask "Is that a threat?"

206. When in an elevator, in different voices, shout out random floors, and then watch as you get there, no one gets off.

207. Also, when riding up an elevator with a stranger, start singing a song that everyone knows, then expect them to start singing too. If they do not start singing, insist, "Everyone knows that song. Are you stupid?"

208. While walking make car noises loudly (Such as changing gears).

209. Whenever somebody says something, ask what the simplest word they said means. When they explain, ask what the simplest word in their explanation means. Repeat this for the entire conversation.

210. Go up to a someone and say, "Are you annoyed by irrelevant questions?" And then walk away very quickly.

211. Finish each sentence with "Monkey See, Monkey Do".

212. Click your mechanical pencils or your pens during a test in school.

213. Pretend you are invisible.

214. Convince people you are deaf and talk in an incredibly phony sign language.

215. Spend all day at a fast food restaurant and see how long it takes before you have to pay for your "free" refills.

216. Continuously open your briefcase or bag and say into it, "Have you got enough air in there?"

217. While going down in an elevator scream, "AAAAAGGGGGHHHHH!!!! WE'RE GONNA DIE!!!" for no apparent reason.

218. Call everyone a communist.

219. Explain "the little green men" in detail to someone, and when they don't believe you, accuse them of being one in disguise.

220.. Call your neighbors collect.

221. Whenever someone finishes a sentence say, "And then what happened?"

222. Page yourself over an intercom, but don't disguise your voice.

223. Send people annoying chain forwards with outrageous consequences like "If you don't send this to 300 people in 4 seconds you will die instantly" and then insist that it is true and it happened to your uncle.

224. When walking push an invisible cart and make loud squeaky noises.

225. Walk up to random people and ask them, very seriously, "Do you know the muffin man?"

226. Clear your throat every three or four words while speaking.

227. Look at your hand in amazement and say, "Whoa, I never knew I had this!"

228. While driving if you see a "How am I driving" bumper sticker, call the number and inform the operator that the driver is doing a great job.

229. When driving with companions in the car, every few seconds slam on the brakes and insist that a squirrel ran in front of you.

230. When driving with companions in the car, every few seconds slam on the brakes and insist that a squirrel ran in front of you.

231. Whenever anybody says anything to you. Respond by saying, "I know."

232. Sending this list to all of your friends through email.

233. Continue to ask someone, "Is this annoying? Is this annoying?" over and over and over.

234. Tap someone on the shoulder repeatedly.

235. Begin every sentence with, "By the Gods!"

236. When you're in an argument, no matter what it's about, keep yelling "I don't see your name on it!".

237. When in public, pretend you are selling something in an infomercial.

238. At a restaurant, repeatedly send your food back for changes and after awhile insist that, "This isn't what I ordered!"

239. Go to a shoe store and try on every shoe, then say that you aren't interested in buying shoes and leave.

240. Put powdered sugar in your hair, sit down next to a stranger, and scratch your head a lot.

241. Turn on the Talk Radio Stations in your car, roll down your windows, and headbang.

242. Walk around with a plastic sword and shield and tell strangers "I must avenge the death of my father."

243. Scotch tape your door as an Anti-theft Device.

244. Super Glue quarters to floors.

245. Put the wrong date and year on the papers you hand in to your teachers.

246. Call random numbers and say "Hi, this is Julie from Basken Robins. If you can name 31 flavors in 31 seconds you get a free scoop."

247. WRIGHT N AL CAPITOL LETERS AND MISSSSSPEL EVRYTHIND!!!

248. Get two cell phones and talk to yourself on them in front of other people.
249. Make a loud and abrupt noise when nobody is looking, then face the other direction when everybody looks your way, pretending the sound came from behind you. (Thanks Alex)
250. Llend a book to someone, but staple the middle together.
251) Llend someone a book, but rip out the climax.
252) When making a list use the same number twice.
253) Spel easy wordds rong.
253) Pronunce people's names wrong everytime you meet them.
254) Laugh at everything they say.
255) Never laugh at what they say.
256) When talking to someone, tilt your head to the side.
257) Snicker at what someone said and say "I got the movie reference".


I did not make this list!

Emo Corner

Dear Diary,


I wrote a poem.


Here I sit,
In my emo corner,
Full of emo shit.
 (sorry little kiddies :P)
And only some people can be a foreigner.

I look across the room so close,
This emo corner is real.
I take an emo rose,
Holding it out to him to reveal...

The love, blooming..
The friendship, blooming,
Something, which is still happening now.
He slowly carves a beautiful 'M',
And I return the favor to him.
Except, I carve a 'D', and say, "Wow."



If you doubt the reality of this emo corner,
Then you are surely a foreigner.




In my room, I truly have my own emo corner. I even have a Danny corner. But the sad thing is, no one fills it. Especially not the true owner.
I hope that is not something that will apply to my situation forever.

12/26/09

Chat




Moonlife: If a third of six is three what would half of twenty be?
Roger898: did i just say that.. i was Just kidding
Moonlife: can any1 awnser that?
gcavaresi: w8
Roger898: no please
Meghan16: 15 is the answer... i think.
gcavaresi: professor layton and the curious village
Moonlife: really?
Moonlife: kool
Moonlife: ty
Moonlife: that was the correct awsner
Meghan16: Really?
gcavaresi: professor layton?
Moonlife: ya
Meghan16: Awesome I wasn't sure


Yay 11 year olds are smarticles too!!! XD

Photography




Photography-One of the things I've been interested in to distract myself-- I went on trip to the graveyard near my house yesterday to take photos with my new camera. My brother came with me-- He was in a lot of the photos.
Some aren't just from the graveyard, but from the way there.








Diary

This is a part from one of my diary entries-- I edited out some.



Dear Diary,
Recently, everything has been hard for me. I've had to chose between friends, and best friends. Best friends, and more than that.

But that made things worse. Everything is harder, and I'm alone more often. Everyday, I sit here, alone in my room, looking at more fortunate kids through my window. The kids who get to see their friends everyday. I sit there, wishing that someday I was like that. Sometimes those kids, they don't even WANT to see their friends. I don't think it will ever be like that for me. Everyday, I look for my friends. When I see them, yes, I'm happy, but they'll probably have to leave soon.

I'm even happy for the communication I get with Danny-- Just blog posts. Because it means he's there. Alive. Not my imagination. It's proof that I was happy to see something made by him-- every post he puts on his blog, makes me feel closer to him. Almost as if he was right next to me.

But I have to distract myself from the sadness that is my life. Photography is something. Diaries.  This blog, is a distraction.

And what's the stupidest thing? I probably COULD someday meet Danny, in real life. If I wasn't shy.

shy people are definitely not what makes the world go round--- Outgoing people are THAT source.

Being shy makes things even shittier for me-- it feels like I'll never have someone by my side who understands me. Because he is the only one who understands me. He IS like my soulmate.
Almost like, if I had him, everything would be perfect. Maybe I wouldn't be as shy.

But since I am shy, I'll never meet him. Because I could ask one of my parents to see him. Sure, it would only be a 49% chance-- but hey, I would have a chance.

I'd love to ask them-- but I haven't asked them something that serious in a long time.

Which is why I'm not complete.


I haven't heard his voice. I haven't seen his face. I haven't met him.


I'm still incomplete.


Diary

If you've read Danny's blog, you'll notice that he posts his diary entries. Sometimes, I do that , too, but don't imply that its a diary entry. I'm not just copying Danny, but so you know its from my diary I'll probably write 'Dear Diary' in it. I've been thinking about it for quite a while, though. Anyway, aren't blogs like online diaries?

Until next time... this has been Meghan16. :)

(By the way: I'll probably be uploading some more youtube videos on my youtube channel (http://www.youtube.com/user/Meghan164)
because I got a new video camera. :P )

12/25/09

Lets get this over with.

Danny:
No matter what, I'll love you.
Even if I'm 4, 5, 6 years younger than you, I'll love you.
Everyday, I think about you. I wish that you were right next to me, every second of every day.
I'll always love you, no matter what. I'll probably never get over you, even in, 10 years or something, I'll probably still think about you. That will never change.

No matter how far away you are. If you were ever in America, if it wasn't my state, I would go and find you. Everyday, I wish that something would happen. SOmething would change.

Conclusion? I love you, more than anything, and always will.

Christmas Presents

So, Christmas was totally AWESOME!
I got these:
An easy button
A Twilight DVD
A Twilight Bookmark
2 borders gift cards
A Twilight post
5 glow sticks
A maze thingy..
A fruit clock
A SmallWonder video camera
A tripod that can move/bend around
2 llama T-shirts
A few Twilight t-shirts
Some other T-shirts
A yo-yo ball :P
A squishy thingy... :P
A make-up kit..
Some random things... :P

12/24/09

So yeah..

Hai, do you guys think I should write more about my boring, weird life? XD

Well I'm gonna in this post, so if not, the DEAL!

My brother got a haircut yesterday... I didn't go with him but when my mom and him came back, I was like  OMG YOU LOOK SO CUTE AND EMO!!!!! And he looked like this kid from terminator!!!!



Except my brother has glasses, but hes gonna get contacts... Lol..


Oh yeah, so I've been awake since like 3 am!!!!! Lol... I just woke up and I was like.. "Whatever I'm not tired" and then i did stuff on the computer and all that.
I saw Danny posting a lot (where he lives its 5 hours ahead of my time so at 3 it was 8 for him)
So yeah...
I sometimes wake up early because then I might see him.

SO yeah, when it was like 3 am I PEEKED inside of some of my presents!!!!!! I think I might be getting a new awesome cell phone !!!!!
And some twilight stuff and other things.
I CAN'T WAIT TILL CHRISTMAS!!!!!
Even though its probably not really possible, I wish Danny was here for Christmas... I just wish I could look at him! If he came that would be probably all I would do... Look at him... well probably not I would  like hug him and stuff too!!!! Cause like, I feel so close to him when I don't even know him in real life.... But if I could I would visit him because he means the world to me!!!!!! Seriously!!!!
 But incase you didn't know.... I'm not 13 or 14 or 15 or nothing... I'm........ 11. -_- It was a secret till now...
Shut up, older people!!!!
How old did you think I was, with me and Danny always saying "age is but a number" and stuff!!! SHEESH!!!!
Plus I wish I could go see Caitlyn!!!! If you didn't know shes like my second bestestest friend on kongregate!!!!!
Plus she likes my brother... :P And shes always like, "When is sammeh (not his real name) coming online??????" and its so funny... but annoying!!!

Oh yeah, and I'm getting some of my presents today, cause I think I'm going to my grandparents house to get em...
Oh yeah, and in my living room there is a HUGE pile of presents.

Oh yeah I have another secret....
My name is NOT Meghan!!!!!
A bunch of people think that!
My name is....
Phaedra!!!!
You say it like Fay- Draw!!!!
But EVERYONE spells it wrong!!!!
And I only met like one person who had the name Phaedra but theirs was like Fay or something, really, cause they lied...
Plus she was like older than me (I met her at soccer camp.. well actually no someone just mentioned her I never saw her)
Lol... She must've quit. :P SO anyway away from the topic of my name....

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE!!!!!

Oh yeah so recently I've been wearing this BlueBerry Chapstick.. thats not important but 2 dudes tried to KISS ME!!! Okay yeah I was tempting cause I was wearing a button on my sweater that said "Kiss me I'm emo" But stilll!!! It was like so funny though cause one was like my best  friend/crush, Matt, and the other was this dude that keeps calling me on my home phone, and his name is Isiah... He kept saying like, "Hai I'd really kiss you!!!"

Aw crap sun is in my eyes!!!!! Like it just started to move into the wrong place :P Lol.....

Anyway!!! I wanna get an emo haircut!!!!! Like... Soon!!!!!!!!! I wanna get LAYERS and have som hair over my eye!!!!

And I'm probably gonna start wearing eyeliner more often... Yeah incase you didn't know i'm EMO!!!!!!!!!!
Lol... SHHHH its a seeecret!!!!

I'm ganna get and Edward Cullen Stand up poster for Christmas!!! Lol....

Oh yeah, I watched My Sisters Keeper, and it was SOOOOO sad!!!!!
Plus, it didn't follow the book!
Anna was supposed to die! (the one without cancer)
But Kate died :( I was like soooo pissed. And Kates boyfriend died!!! :( She thought like he ditched her because he died when they were supposed to go to the prom or something... but in the movie instead, he died AFTER they went to the prom thing and AFTER they had sex... lol.... I thought that was kinda disturbing cause like they had sex in a hospital bed in a hospital, I think... o.O

Anyway... See ya.

I didn't write this, but it explains how I feel about someone...


I would lie for you.
Cry for you.
Lay down and die for you.
All my fears are for you.
Every single tear is for you.
Everything I say is for you.
Every night I pray for you.
Your always in my mind.
Every day and night.
Every minute you’ll find,
I wanna hold onto you tight.
Never wanting to let go.
Just as long as you know,
I love you so.
I’ll protect you life or death.
Protect you till’ I’m out of breath.
I would give my whole life for you.
I’d be the perfect wife for you.

Everything I do is for you,
I’m on this earth for you.
<3 <3 <3

Repost this if...

Month 1Mommy, I am only 8 inches long, but I have all my organs. I love the sound of your voice. Every time I hear it, I wave my arms and legs. The sound of your heart beat is my favorite lullaby.Month 2Mommy, today I learned how to suck my thumb. If you could see me, you could definitely tell that I am a baby. I'm not big enough to survive outside my home though. It is so nice and warm in here.Month 3You know what Mommy, I'm a girl!! I hope that makes you happy. I always want you to be happy. I don't like it when you cry. You sound so sad. It makes me sad too, and I cry with you even though you can't hear me.Month 4Mommy, my hair is starting to grow. It is very short and fine, but I will have a lot of it. I spend a lot of my time exercising. I can turn my head and curl my fingers and toes, and stretch my arms and legs. I am becoming quite good at it too.Month 5You went to the doctor today. Mommy, he lied to you. He said that I'm not a baby. I am a baby Mommy, your baby. I think and feel. Mommy, what's abortion?Month 6I can hear that doctor again. I don't like him. He seems cold and heartless. Something is intruding my home. The doctor called it a needle. Mommy what is it? It burns! Please make him stop! I can't get away from it! Mommy!! HELP me!!Month 7Mommy, I am okay. I am in Jesus's arms. he is holding me. He told me about abortion. Why didn't you want me, Mommy?Every Abortion Is Just . . .One more heart that was stopped. Two more eyes that will never see. Two more hands that will never touch. Two more legs that will never run. One more mouth that will never speak. Repost this if you have a heart and are against Abortion

Status

Well... The title explains it sort of...

Here I am..
A young,thin girl, half asleep, sitting on an armchair, with a computer, staring at a T.V.

Got the image in your mind?

Now, she has sleepless, blue eyes, and shes tired. Its dark outside. Her dark brown hair covers one of her eyes. From her sleepless nights of thinking, she has bruises under her eyes. She has dark clothes. For someone her age, she's different.

"Hey There Delilah" is quietly playing from her ipod, and shes crying.

Has the image changed?

Imagine the girl with a broken heart. Has the picture changed? No.

She's waiting. Always waiting, for the one person.



She look

Take This Survey... Another.


  • Current Residence: in your kitchen, making emo cookies, scaring your mum,doin the Timewarp,listenin to music, drawing my best friend.
  • Interests: The twilight series,Cats, Emos,manga, anime,drawing,musicing (listening to music, lol)
  • Favourite movie: My Sisters Keeper, but the movie is way different than the book...
  • Favourite band or musician: FOB, MCR,P!ATD, AAR, Good Charlotte, Simple Plan, Rise Against, Linkin Park, 3 Days Grace,The Fray... a bunch more.
  • Favourite genre of music: Alternative, Rock
  • Favourite artist: Natsuki Takaya
  • Favourite poet or writer: Me. :)
  • Favourite photographer: My bro (lol)
  • Favourite style of art: Manga/Anime
  • Operating System: Mac Laptop
  • MP3 player of choice: iPod! :)
  • Skin of choice: PALE WHITENESS!
  • Favourite game: The Button Game!
  • Personal Quote: "Lav yoo"

Him

I love it when I see his name,
I love it when he talks and laughs,
Our little replies feel like a game,
When the game ends, will my heart be in halves?

I don't think so.
Because Danny is Danny.
So I'll give this friendship a go.

But what is it, a friendship, or love?
He's nice.
His personality is like a dove.
Delicate, understandable..
Different.

And 'different' is what makes my world spin.
This game, I'll win..
The game of happiness.
Because he is my everything.


Always.
Everyday.
I love him.
I need him.
I want him.
♥ Love ♥ 



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12/23/09

Take this survey..

1. Do you like chinese food?
Hell yeah...
2. How big is your bed?
Twin..
3. Is your room clean?
Yeah, cause I cleaned it like 2 hours ago... But I clean it when I can't walk through XD
4. Laptop or Desktop computer?
Laptop!!!
5. Favorite comedian?
Jeff Dunham, Or Jo Koy
6. Do you smoke?
Nope.
7. Does anyone like you?
Probably a total of... 1 person, who I have never met in person.
8. Whats the sexiest thing about Condoleeza Rice?
Wait, WHAT?
10. Sleep with or without clothes on?

Depends... -_- XD
11. Who sleeps with you every night?
Ummm.... Dude. No. One.
12. Do long distance relationships work?
Yes. Hell Yeah. But the ones in the relationships should visit each other sometimes.
13. How many times have you been pulled over by the police?
..Never.

14. Pancakes or French Toast?
Pancakes.
15. Do you like coffee?
Hell YEAH! *hyper*
16. How do you like your eggs?
Eggs suck eggs.
17. Do you believe in astrology?
...Yeah?
18. Last person you talked to on the phone?
My friend, Matt.
19. Last person on your missed call list?
Some dude, crushing on me, named Isiah.
20. What was the last text message you received?
"Hai cn I com ovr ur howse?
21. McDonalds or Burger King?
Burger King.
22. Number of pillows?
2.
23. Last thing you ate?
Blueberry chap stick. XD

24. Last thing you bought?
... underclothes.
25. What are you hearing right now?
My T.V., and Nine In the Afternoon by Panic! At the disco
26. Pick a lyric?

"Pickin up things we shouldn't read, It looks like the end of history as we know, its just the end of the world."
7. What kind of jelly do you like on your PB & J sandwich?
Raspberry... such a funny word... :P
28. Can you play pool?
Kinda..
29. Do you know how to swim?
Yeah.
30. Favorite ice cream?
I don't like ice cream... No don't think I'm crazy its just not that awesome.
31. Do you like maps?
Only if they lead to my bestestestestest friend.
32. Tell me a random fact:
I rock.
33. Ever had a hard on at work?
I'm gonna skip that, for that fact that I'm a girl.
34. Ever attend a theme party?
Umm..
35. Ever do a keg stand?
...No...
36. Craziest place you've slept after a night of drinking?
I don't drink.

37. What is your favorite season?
Summer. Or... WInter. Or maybe, spring. XD
38. What is the first music video you ever saw?
Probably, the one for 21 guns by Green Day.
39. Pick a movie quote:
Pffft.

40. Favorite quote:
"Lav yoo"
41. What is your favorite hangout?
My emo corner.
42. Best friend's name?
Danneh. Teh. Dood.
43. How long have you known them?
Like... 8 months?
44. Last time you laughed at something stupid?
Stuff....
45. What time did you wake up this morning?
4:00 am.
46. Wake up next to anyone?
I wish. -_- Or maybe, you wish.
47. Best thing about winter?
You can cuddle.. :P
348. Name a couple of favorite colors:
Rainbow, Gray Scale, Black, Red, pink... purple... Lol..
49. How old are you?
...Thats a secret. :P
50. What month is your birthday in?
September.
51. Do you think pirates are cool or overrated?
Ninjas are WAAAAY bettah.
52. Favorite Dave Matthew's Band song (if you have one?)
Wait, WHO?
53. Who will take this survey?

People.

Dear Love

Dear Love,

Love, haven't you ever wonder what that word means?
I have.
What could love mean?
To me...
To you....
Have you thought about that?
A nickname, a feeling, an emotion...
It means so many things.

-a strong positive emotion of regard and affection; "his love for his work"; "children need a lot of love"
-have a great affection or liking for;
-beloved: a beloved person; used as terms of endearment
-be enamored or in love with; "She loves her husband deeply"
 
It means many other things, as well.
But what is it, really?
What is it, to YOU,Love?
Do you love the time I spend with you...
Do you love the emo cookies I make for you?
Do you love the fact that both of us would give the world, for the other? To be with the other, every second of every day.
Love is really... to adore someone so much, that you'd do anything for them. To adore them so much, you'd sell your soul to the devil for them, to adore them so much... Well, you'd die for that person.
And that is possible my feelings for you.
Love....

 From,
The one who loves you most. And, loves you, forever.                                                                                                                    


12/22/09

Slight Story-- "Every Day".

This is not a song. It is not a essay. It is not a letter. It is not even a poem.
It is a slight story. Something I make up all the time.To a friend.






Everyday, I think of you.
Everyday, I look forward to see if you have replied. Replied to what feels to me, like little stories, letters songs, and poems to each other. Just not indicating a message. Maybes its an odd thing. But I am an odd person. Does it matter?

Everyday, I wonder if you think of these little things the same way. If you understand what I'm saying. If they're just little weird paragraphs. If anyone, including you, cares.

Everyday, I ask. I ask, is something going to happen to me today? Will it be something away from the usual, average, yet painful life?

Everyday, I sleep, after staring at my ceiling awake, wondering. Wondering if a good thing will happen. A bad thing to others, a good thing to me.
Everyday I wonder when I will die, when I will meet you, if I will meet you, if things will change, if I will love, if something abnormal will happen.
Everyday, I wake up.
Many days, I groan, and get up. I do the morning usual - average, boring, stupid.
Everyday, eventually, I get up.
Everyday, I look at myself.
Everyday, I wonder, Am I beautiful? Am I pretty? Am I... abnormal?
When the answer to the last question has been answered, "Yes.", I go to school on most days. I take the bus and watch other people enjoy themselves, smiling. They have what they want to have. I still long for the one thing and person I want. Yet, the others have beautiful, lucky lies. A bunch of preppy rich kids, when I'm just the kid who moved from the retard school last year, and knows nothing.
Everyday, I know that I'm just the different, abnormal one.
I leave the dreadful school, wishing that maybe one day I'll be home schooled, like my friend will be.
Everyday, I am eventually home. I hang around, wishing for something abnormal. I hope to 'see' you.
Everyday, I fall asleep, wishing for something. And someone. Him.
When I see you, it's like my heart pops out of my chest. My smile is wide, my thoughts are excited.
Life is, even for just a few minutes, great.

12/21/09

"I'm here". (Another song)

So heres another song I'd like to dedicate to my bestestestestestestestestestestestestest friend.. :)
Sorry most of my recent posts have been songs.
By the way, I don't have vacation until Thursday.
Its from December 24th to the first monday in January.

When You think I'm not,
I'm here for you.
So why don't you give a shot,
And give me something to do.

I think the best Christmas present,
Would be to have you here, by me.
But how do I know, it won't be somethin' I'll resent?
I don't even know what to me, you'll be.

Maybe we'll change, and we'll be in love.
And wasn't it you, that told me age is but a number?
I don't know what the hell you mean to me,
I don't know what I ever wanna be,
Maybe in love,
Maybe just friends,
But as long as I'm here with you, everything's fine..

You don't know it,
But I'm right here.
You don't know shit,
But I've got no fear.

Hey, hey, hey,
What are you thinkin' now?
Woah,Woah, Woah,
Do you think we know how?
How to fall in love?
How to fall in love...

Cause you just know what?
I'm always here for you.
Cause you know, anyday
I'd give my life to see you.
Cause you know, everyday,
No matter the way,
I'll spend everyday,
Thinking of you.

I'm here,
I'm here.
I'm here-ere-ere-ere.
No fear, no fear.
Not what I wanna hear.

I don't wanna let go,
So, so, so.
Are you gonna make up your mind?
Or is it you,
I'm gonna have to find?

Oh why, why, why.
Can't you be at my side.
I wanna fly, fly, fly.
Instead of cower and hide.

Cause I'm not afraid of loving,
Not afraid, of loving.
Not afraid of loving, you.

So why can't you geeet, that?
I always wanna be wherever you're at.
What should I do?
Cause I wanna be there for you,
I'm always here.