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Moonlife: If a third of six is three what would half of twenty be?

Roger898: did i just say that.. i was Just kidding

Moonlife: can any1 awnser that?

gcavaresi: w8

Roger898: no please

Meghan16: 15 is the answer... i think.

gcavaresi: professor layton and the curious village

Moonlife: really?

Moonlife: kool

Moonlife: ty

Moonlife: that was the correct awsner

Meghan16: Really?

gcavaresi: professor layton?

Moonlife: ya

Meghan16: Awesome I wasn't sure

Yay 11 year olds are smarticles too!!! XD

Photography

Photography-One of the things I've been interested in to distract myself-- I went on trip to the graveyard near my house yesterday to take photos with my new camera. My brother came with me-- He was in a lot of the photos.

Some aren't just from the graveyard, but from the way there.

Diary

This is a part from one of my diary entries-- I edited out some.



Dear Diary,
Recently, everything has been hard for me. I've had to chose between friends, and best friends. Best friends, and more than that.

But that made things worse. Everything is harder, and I'm alone more often. Everyday, I sit here, alone in my room, looking at more fortunate kids through my window. The kids who get to see their friends everyday. I sit there, wishing that someday I was like that. Sometimes those kids, they don't even WANT to see their friends. I don't think it will ever be like that for me. Everyday, I look for my friends. When I see them, yes, I'm happy, but they'll probably have to leave soon.

I'm even happy for the communication I get with Danny-- Just blog posts. Because it means he's there. Alive. Not my imagination. It's proof that I was happy to see something made by him-- every post he puts on his blog, makes me feel closer to him. Almost as if he was right next to me.

But I have to distract myself from the sadness that is my life. Photography is something. Diaries.  This blog, is a distraction.

And what's the stupidest thing? I probably COULD someday meet Danny, in real life. If I wasn't shy.

shy people are definitely not what makes the world go round--- Outgoing people are THAT source.

Being shy makes things even shittier for me-- it feels like I'll never have someone by my side who understands me. Because he is the only one who understands me. He IS like my soulmate.
Almost like, if I had him, everything would be perfect. Maybe I wouldn't be as shy.

But since I am shy, I'll never meet him. Because I could ask one of my parents to see him. Sure, it would only be a 49% chance-- but hey, I would have a chance.

I'd love to ask them-- but I haven't asked them something that serious in a long time.

Which is why I'm not complete.


I haven't heard his voice. I haven't seen his face. I haven't met him.


I'm still incomplete.


♥

Diary

If you've read Danny's blog, you'll notice that he posts his diary entries. Sometimes, I do that , too, but don't imply that its a diary entry. I'm not just copying Danny, but so you know its from my diary I'll probably write 'Dear Diary' in it. I've been thinking about it for quite a while, though. Anyway, aren't blogs like online diaries?

Until next time... this has been Meghan16. :)

(By the way: I'll probably be uploading some more youtube videos on my youtube channel (http://www.youtube.com/user/Meghan164)
because I got a new video camera. :P )

Lets get this over with.

Danny:
No matter what, I'll love you.
Even if I'm 4, 5, 6 years younger than you, I'll love you.
Everyday, I think about you. I wish that you were right next to me, every second of every day.
I'll always love you, no matter what. I'll probably never get over you, even in, 10 years or something, I'll probably still think about you. That will never change.

No matter how far away you are. If you were ever in America, if it wasn't my state, I would go and find you. Everyday, I wish that something would happen. SOmething would change.

Conclusion? I love you, more than anything, and always will.

Christmas Presents

So, Christmas was totally AWESOME!
I got these:
An easy button
A Twilight DVD
A Twilight Bookmark
2 borders gift cards
A Twilight post
5 glow sticks
A maze thingy..
A fruit clock
A SmallWonder video camera
A tripod that can move/bend around
2 llama T-shirts
A few Twilight t-shirts
Some other T-shirts
A yo-yo ball :P
A squishy thingy... :P
A make-up kit..
Some random things... :P

So yeah..

Hai, do you guys think I should write more about my boring, weird life? XD

Well I'm gonna in this post, so if not, the DEAL!

My brother got a haircut yesterday... I didn't go with him but when my mom and him came back, I was like  OMG YOU LOOK SO CUTE AND EMO!!!!! And he looked like this kid from terminator!!!!

Except my brother has glasses, but hes gonna get contacts... Lol..

Oh yeah, so I've been awake since like 3 am!!!!! Lol... I just woke up and I was like.. "Whatever I'm not tired" and then i did stuff on the computer and all that.

I saw Danny posting a lot (where he lives its 5 hours ahead of my time so at 3 it was 8 for him)

So yeah...

I sometimes wake up early because then I might see him.

SO yeah, when it was like 3 am I PEEKED inside of some of my presents!!!!!! I think I might be getting a new awesome cell phone !!!!!

And some twilight stuff and other things.

I CAN'T WAIT TILL CHRISTMAS!!!!!

Even though its probably not really possible, I wish Danny was here for Christmas... I just wish I could look at him! If he came that would be probably all I would do... Look at him... well probably not I would  like hug him and stuff too!!!! Cause like, I feel so close to him when I don't even know him in real life.... But if I could I would visit him because he means the world to me!!!!!! Seriously!!!!

 But incase you didn't know.... I'm not 13 or 14 or 15 or nothing... I'm........ 11. -_- It was a secret till now...

Shut up, older people!!!!

How old did you think I was, with me and Danny always saying "age is but a number" and stuff!!! SHEESH!!!!

Plus I wish I could go see Caitlyn!!!! If you didn't know shes like my second bestestest friend on kongregate!!!!!

Plus she likes my brother... :P And shes always like, "When is sammeh (not his real name) coming online??????" and its so funny... but annoying!!!

Oh yeah, and I'm getting some of my presents today, cause I think I'm going to my grandparents house to get em...

Oh yeah, and in my living room there is a HUGE pile of presents.

Oh yeah I have another secret....

My name is NOT Meghan!!!!!

A bunch of people think that!

My name is....

Phaedra!!!!

You say it like Fay- Draw!!!!

But EVERYONE spells it wrong!!!!

And I only met like one person who had the name Phaedra but theirs was like Fay or something, really, cause they lied...

Plus she was like older than me (I met her at soccer camp.. well actually no someone just mentioned her I never saw her)

Lol... She must've quit. :P SO anyway away from the topic of my name....

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE!!!!!

Oh yeah so recently I've been wearing this BlueBerry Chapstick.. thats not important but 2 dudes tried to KISS ME!!! Okay yeah I was tempting cause I was wearing a button on my sweater that said "Kiss me I'm emo" But stilll!!! It was like so funny though cause one was like my best  friend/crush, Matt, and the other was this dude that keeps calling me on my home phone, and his name is Isiah... He kept saying like, "Hai I'd really kiss you!!!"

Aw crap sun is in my eyes!!!!! Like it just started to move into the wrong place :P Lol.....

Anyway!!! I wanna get an emo haircut!!!!! Like... Soon!!!!!!!!! I wanna get LAYERS and have som hair over my eye!!!!

And I'm probably gonna start wearing eyeliner more often... Yeah incase you didn't know i'm EMO!!!!!!!!!!

Lol... SHHHH its a seeecret!!!!

I'm ganna get and Edward Cullen Stand up poster for Christmas!!! Lol....

Oh yeah, I watched My Sisters Keeper, and it was SOOOOO sad!!!!!

Plus, it didn't follow the book!

Anna was supposed to die! (the one without cancer)

But Kate died :( I was like soooo pissed. And Kates boyfriend died!!! :( She thought like he ditched her because he died when they were supposed to go to the prom or something... but in the movie instead, he died AFTER they went to the prom thing and AFTER they had sex... lol.... I thought that was kinda disturbing cause like they had sex in a hospital bed in a hospital, I think... o.O

Anyway... See ya.

I didn't write this, but it explains how I feel about someone...

I would lie for you.
Cry for you.
Lay down and die for you.
All my fears are for you.
Every single tear is for you.
Everything I say is for you.
Every night I pray for you.
Your always in my mind.
Every day and night.
Every minute you’ll find,
I wanna hold onto you tight.
Never wanting to let go.
Just as long as you know,
I love you so.
I’ll protect you life or death.
Protect you till’ I’m out of breath.
I would give my whole life for you.
I’d be the perfect wife for you.

Everything I do is for you,
I’m on this earth for you.

<3 <3 <3

Repost this if...

Month 1Mommy, I am only 8 inches long, but I have all my organs. I love the sound of your voice. Every time I hear it, I wave my arms and legs. The sound of your heart beat is my favorite lullaby.Month 2Mommy, today I learned how to suck my thumb. If you could see me, you could definitely tell that I am a baby. I'm not big enough to survive outside my home though. It is so nice and warm in here.Month 3You know what Mommy, I'm a girl!! I hope that makes you happy. I always want you to be happy. I don't like it when you cry. You sound so sad. It makes me sad too, and I cry with you even though you can't hear me.Month 4Mommy, my hair is starting to grow. It is very short and fine, but I will have a lot of it. I spend a lot of my time exercising. I can turn my head and curl my fingers and toes, and stretch my arms and legs. I am becoming quite good at it too.Month 5You went to the doctor today. Mommy, he lied to you. He said that I'm not a baby. I am a baby Mommy, your baby. I think and feel. Mommy, what's abortion?Month 6I can hear that doctor again. I don't like him. He seems cold and heartless. Something is intruding my home. The doctor called it a needle. Mommy what is it? It burns! Please make him stop! I can't get away from it! Mommy!! HELP me!!Month 7Mommy, I am okay. I am in Jesus's arms. he is holding me. He told me about abortion. Why didn't you want me, Mommy?Every Abortion Is Just . . .One more heart that was stopped. Two more eyes that will never see. Two more hands that will never touch. Two more legs that will never run. One more mouth that will never speak. Repost this if you have a heart and are against Abortion

Status

Well... The title explains it sort of...

Here I am..
A young,thin girl, half asleep, sitting on an armchair, with a computer, staring at a T.V.

Got the image in your mind?

Now, she has sleepless, blue eyes, and shes tired. Its dark outside. Her dark brown hair covers one of her eyes. From her sleepless nights of thinking, she has bruises under her eyes. She has dark clothes. For someone her age, she's different.

"Hey There Delilah" is quietly playing from her ipod, and shes crying.

Has the image changed?

Imagine the girl with a broken heart. Has the picture changed? No.

She's waiting. Always waiting, for the one person.



She look

Take This Survey... Another.

• Current Residence: in your kitchen, making emo cookies, scaring your mum,doin the Timewarp,listenin to music, drawing my best friend.
• Interests: The twilight series,Cats, Emos,manga, anime,drawing,musicing (listening to music, lol)
• Favourite movie: My Sisters Keeper, but the movie is way different than the book...
• Favourite band or musician: FOB, MCR,P!ATD, AAR, Good Charlotte, Simple Plan, Rise Against, Linkin Park, 3 Days Grace,The Fray... a bunch more.
• Favourite genre of music: Alternative, Rock
• Favourite artist: Natsuki Takaya
• Favourite poet or writer: Me. :)
• Favourite photographer: My bro (lol)
• Favourite style of art: Manga/Anime
• Operating System: Mac Laptop
• MP3 player of choice: iPod! :)
• Skin of choice: PALE WHITENESS!
• Favourite game: The Button Game!
• Personal Quote: "Lav yoo"

Him

I love it when I see his name,

I love it when he talks and laughs,

Our little replies feel like a game,

When the game ends, will my heart be in halves?

I don't think so.

Because Danny is Danny.

So I'll give this friendship a go.

But what is it, a friendship, or love?

He's nice.

His personality is like a dove.

Delicate, understandable..

Different.

And 'different' is what makes my world spin.

This game, I'll win..

The game of happiness.

Because he is my everything.

Always.

Everyday.

I love him.

I need him.

I want him.

♥ Love ♥ 

♥♥   ♥♥ 

♥♥  ♥♥

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Take this survey..

1. Do you like chinese food?
Hell yeah...
2. How big is your bed?
Twin..
3. Is your room clean?
Yeah, cause I cleaned it like 2 hours ago... But I clean it when I can't walk through XD
4. Laptop or Desktop computer?
Laptop!!!
5. Favorite comedian?
Jeff Dunham, Or Jo Koy
6. Do you smoke?
Nope.
7. Does anyone like you?
Probably a total of... 1 person, who I have never met in person.
8. Whats the sexiest thing about Condoleeza Rice?
Wait, WHAT?
10. Sleep with or without clothes on?
Depends... -_- XD
11. Who sleeps with you every night?
Ummm.... Dude. No. One.
12. Do long distance relationships work?
Yes. Hell Yeah. But the ones in the relationships should visit each other sometimes.
13. How many times have you been pulled over by the police?
..Never.
14. Pancakes or French Toast?
Pancakes.
15. Do you like coffee?
Hell YEAH! *hyper*
16. How do you like your eggs?
Eggs suck eggs.
17. Do you believe in astrology?
...Yeah?
18. Last person you talked to on the phone?
My friend, Matt.
19. Last person on your missed call list?
Some dude, crushing on me, named Isiah.
20. What was the last text message you received?
"Hai cn I com ovr ur howse?
21. McDonalds or Burger King?
Burger King.
22. Number of pillows?
2.
23. Last thing you ate?
Blueberry chap stick. XD
24. Last thing you bought?
... underclothes.
25. What are you hearing right now?
My T.V., and Nine In the Afternoon by Panic! At the disco
26. Pick a lyric?
"Pickin up things we shouldn't read, It looks like the end of history as we know, its just the end of the world."
7. What kind of jelly do you like on your PB & J sandwich?
Raspberry... such a funny word... :P
28. Can you play pool?
Kinda..
29. Do you know how to swim?
Yeah.
30. Favorite ice cream?
I don't like ice cream... No don't think I'm crazy its just not that awesome.
31. Do you like maps?
Only if they lead to my bestestestestest friend.
32. Tell me a random fact:
I rock.
33. Ever had a hard on at work?
I'm gonna skip that, for that fact that I'm a girl.
34. Ever attend a theme party?
Umm..
35. Ever do a keg stand?
...No...
36. Craziest place you've slept after a night of drinking?
I don't drink.
37. What is your favorite season?
Summer. Or... WInter. Or maybe, spring. XD
38. What is the first music video you ever saw?
Probably, the one for 21 guns by Green Day.
39. Pick a movie quote:
Pffft.
40. Favorite quote:
"Lav yoo"
41. What is your favorite hangout?
My emo corner.
42. Best friend's name?
Danneh. Teh. Dood.
43. How long have you known them?
Like... 8 months?
44. Last time you laughed at something stupid?
Stuff....
45. What time did you wake up this morning?
4:00 am.
46. Wake up next to anyone?
I wish. -_- Or maybe, you wish.
47. Best thing about winter?
You can cuddle.. :P
348. Name a couple of favorite colors:
Rainbow, Gray Scale, Black, Red, pink... purple... Lol..
49. How old are you?
...Thats a secret. :P
50. What month is your birthday in?
September.
51. Do you think pirates are cool or overrated?
Ninjas are WAAAAY bettah.
52. Favorite Dave Matthew's Band song (if you have one?)
Wait, WHO?
53. Who will take this survey?
People.

Dear Love

Dear Love,

Love, haven't you ever wonder what that word means?

I have.

What could love mean?

To me...

To you....

Have you thought about that?

A nickname, a feeling, an emotion...

It means so many things.

-a strong positive emotion of regard and affection; "his love for his work"; "children need a lot of love"

-have a great affection or liking for;

-beloved: a beloved person; used as terms of endearment

-be enamored or in love with; "She loves her husband deeply"

 

It means many other things, as well.

But what is it, really?

What is it, to YOU,Love?

Do you love the time I spend with you...

Do you love the emo cookies I make for you?

Do you love the fact that both of us would give the world, for the other? To be with the other, every second of every day.

Love is really... to adore someone so much, that you'd do anything for them. To adore them so much, you'd sell your soul to the devil for them, to adore them so much... Well, you'd die for that person.

And that is possible my feelings for you.

Love....

 From,

The one who loves you most. And, loves you, forever.                                                                                                                    

Slight Story-- "Every Day".

This is not a song. It is not a essay. It is not a letter. It is not even a poem.
It is a slight story. Something I make up all the time.To a friend.






Everyday, I think of you.
Everyday, I look forward to see if you have replied. Replied to what feels to me, like little stories, letters songs, and poems to each other. Just not indicating a message. Maybes its an odd thing. But I am an odd person. Does it matter?

Everyday, I wonder if you think of these little things the same way. If you understand what I'm saying. If they're just little weird paragraphs. If anyone, including you, cares.

Everyday, I ask. I ask, is something going to happen to me today? Will it be something away from the usual, average, yet painful life?

Everyday, I sleep, after staring at my ceiling awake, wondering. Wondering if a good thing will happen. A bad thing to others, a good thing to me.
Everyday I wonder when I will die, when I will meet you, if I will meet you, if things will change, if I will love, if something abnormal will happen.
Everyday, I wake up.
Many days, I groan, and get up. I do the morning usual - average, boring, stupid.
Everyday, eventually, I get up.
Everyday, I look at myself.
Everyday, I wonder, Am I beautiful? Am I pretty? Am I... abnormal?
When the answer to the last question has been answered, "Yes.", I go to school on most days. I take the bus and watch other people enjoy themselves, smiling. They have what they want to have. I still long for the one thing and person I want. Yet, the others have beautiful, lucky lies. A bunch of preppy rich kids, when I'm just the kid who moved from the retard school last year, and knows nothing.
Everyday, I know that I'm just the different, abnormal one.
I leave the dreadful school, wishing that maybe one day I'll be home schooled, like my friend will be.
Everyday, I am eventually home. I hang around, wishing for something abnormal. I hope to 'see' you.
Everyday, I fall asleep, wishing for something. And someone. Him.
When I see you, it's like my heart pops out of my chest. My smile is wide, my thoughts are excited.
Life is, even for just a few minutes, great.

"I'm here". (Another song)

So heres another song I'd like to dedicate to my bestestestestestestestestestestestestest friend.. :)
Sorry most of my recent posts have been songs.
By the way, I don't have vacation until Thursday.
Its from December 24th to the first monday in January.

When You think I'm not,

I'm here for you.

So why don't you give a shot,

And give me something to do.

I think the best Christmas present,

Would be to have you here, by me.

But how do I know, it won't be somethin' I'll resent?

I don't even know what to me, you'll be.

Maybe we'll change, and we'll be in love.

And wasn't it you, that told me age is but a number?

I don't know what the hell you mean to me,

I don't know what I ever wanna be,

Maybe in love,

Maybe just friends,

But as long as I'm here with you, everything's fine..

You don't know it,

But I'm right here.

You don't know shit,

But I've got no fear.

Hey, hey, hey,

What are you thinkin' now?

Woah,Woah, Woah,

Do you think we know how?

How to fall in love?

How to fall in love...

Cause you just know what?

I'm always here for you.

Cause you know, anyday

I'd give my life to see you.

Cause you know, everyday,

No matter the way,

I'll spend everyday,

Thinking of you.

I'm here,

I'm here.

I'm here-ere-ere-ere.

No fear, no fear.

Not what I wanna hear.

I don't wanna let go,

So, so, so.

Are you gonna make up your mind?

Or is it you,

I'm gonna have to find?

Oh why, why, why.

Can't you be at my side.

I wanna fly, fly, fly.

Instead of cower and hide.

Cause I'm not afraid of loving,

Not afraid, of loving.

Not afraid of loving, you.

So why can't you geeet, that?

I always wanna be wherever you're at.

What should I do?

Cause I wanna be there for you,

I'm always here.

Maybe- Another song!

Heres my new song-- "Maybe".

It's dedicated to GrizzlyBearz on Kongregate.

Maybe, Maybe,

Clearer skies,

Maybe, Maybe,

Real nice guys,

Maybe, Maybe,

What to do..

Maybe, Maybe,

I love you.

Theres a sign..

And one good line.

Just be mine,

And you'll be fine.

Look in my blue eyes,

Listen to my cries,

And you'll see, time flies..

The big secret dies,

There are no lies..

Maybe, Maybe,

Razor blades.

Maybe, Maybe,

My love fades.

Is everything,

Worth it now?

If not, I'll leave,

and takes a bow..

And I'll always wonder how.

Maybe, Maybe,

Theres no pain.

Maybe, Maybe,

Here comes rain,

Maybe, Maybe,

I'm to blame.

When I'm with you,

Life is great.

We have good times,

And they can't be crimes.

Maybe, Maybe.

I love you.

"Maybe"

♥